No breaks for mommy
I had oral surgery on Friday. 3 wisdom teeth and 2 molar teeth removed. I spent the whole day at the hospital in a ward that was so cold I left with a cold. I LOATHE being cold so being in that ward waiting to go in for my surgery and in recovery post the surgery was worse than the actual surgery. Yep. In surgery I had general anesthesia so I didn’t feel anything including the cold. But when I was up…. my god. I was FREEZING.
I left the hospital feeling very grumpy. That’s what being cold does to me. It steals my joy. I was a bit relieved that the surgery was on a Friday so that meant I had the weekend to recover. Boy was I wrong. I’m a mommy now. There are no breaks in parenting. On Saturday morning I woke up as soon as I heard my little master go to our bedroom door. Him standing by the door means he needs to go out to potty.
I jumped out of bed and ran to the kitchen with him so I could make him wear his harness and attach the leash. My dad insists I should let him run around the complex without a leash but my baby HATES cats so I wouldn’t want to find out what he’d actually do to a cat the hard way. He always tries running after them when we see one on our walks but thankfully he’s always on a leash so I’m able to restrain him.
And then I don’t know if he was extra needy this weekend or my patience was just thin but it felt like my hand would fall off from petting him. This boy just wouldn’t let me catch a break. My pain meds make me drowsy. I would have loved to just sleep with no disruptions. But ke I’m a mom now. My baby exists to disrupt me. Cry with me. I’m feeling so sleepy right now and I’ll definitely go to bed earlier today cos I have work tomorrow.
But I managed to give him all his meals on time, take him out to potty on time so zero accidents in the house and also give him his meds. So I’m not a terrible mom. I wanted to take him to daycare today so I could rest but it’s been a bit chilly today and I prefer having him home when it’s cold outside. Home has his comforts- the couch, blankets, a gas heater and of course me. I’m just exhausted from mommying and trying to not let that ruin my week.
I love my baby and he loves me too. I’m just unwell and tired. I had to remind myself to extend myself some grace cos I tend to be hard on myself. I’m not a robot. I’m allowed to have down days. I’m allowed to feel overwhelmed by single parenting ESPECIALLY when I’m not feeling well. I know I’ll recover and it won’t feel like such a burden again.
Anyway, to spread some cheer cos I don’t want to just dump my sorrows here like y’all are my unpaid therapists. Sometime in July we had a photoshoot with Emma O’Brien who specializes in dog photography and oh my heart. Cuteness overload!
And I FINALLY managed to take him to the beach!!!!! Last weekend my (late) love’s aunt and I drove down to Durban with my baby. I really just wanted to experience the beach with him. The last time I went to Durban alone was fun but I terribly missed him. So I figured I had to go back with him the next time. Oh my heart. What an experience!! My heart is SO full.
So yea. I may be a little grumpy right now but I absolutely LOVE being Ry’s mommy! What a light he’s been in my life. He gave aaaall my love for my angel somewhere to go. What a gift!
Wishing you a lovely week ahead folks!
