My little love.

I’ve heard from other people who journal how they write more when they are sad than when they are happy. That has been true for me in the past as well but I’m really trying my best to not be that person. I don’t want my writings to be a record of all the bad things that happened in my life only so this is why I’m writing this post today.

This is how my son and I woke up today. I usually sleep facing him but the side I sleep on when I face him is my bad shoulder side. Yes, I’m so old now I now have a “bad shoulder” 😂😂 I’m playing it’s not bad cos of age it’s just been bad for most of my life so sometimes sleeping on it hurts. I fall asleep facing River but I will turn once I can tell he’s dead asleep.

However when he wakes up to find that I’m not facing him he comes to my pillow. Yes, I’m in a codependent relationship with my dog lol. Sometimes I hear him when he wakes up then turn back to face him but last night I didn’t hear him so that made him camp on my pillow for the rest of the night. Listen, I’m also someone’s child I don’t have time to be fighting in the middle of the night so I just moved out of his way and carried on sleeping.

But that just shows the kind of bond my son and I have. He is obsessed with me and I am just as obsessed with him. Loving River is how I flex my love muscle. This dog will never do anything for me in return for my love for him. We love each other just because.

Sometimes parents to human children fall into the trap of loving their kids for what they will do for them in return when they are older. There is no such with dogs. Even if River lives to be 15 he’ll always be just a baby who can’t do anything for me. And that’s the beauty of it. A love so lush, so abundant that we can love simply for the sake of loving!

Having a dog has helped me become the best version of myself. It has taught me to love for the sake of loving. River can never repay me for all I do for him. I am just pouring love into him to get nothing else but love in return. How beautiful. How poetic.

I am so grateful he’s in my life! My life just makes sense with him in it. I love being his safe space. I love having him for a shadow since he follows me everywhere 😂 I just love being loved by him!

He is my love that expects nothing but love from me. There isn’t a version of me I need to be to be loved by River. He just loves who I am as I am. Ain’t that a gift!! I don’t have to twist and bend myself in uncomfortable positions to be accepted by him. He just loves and accepts me as I am. And what a gift that is!!

I am so grateful to love and be loved this way. My zero expectations love. My simple love. My easy love. My everything love.

I am feeling happy and thankful today for how my son and I woke up. It just made me smile so I thought to freeze this moment here. I love my baby dog with all my heart!! Life is infinitely sweeter with him in it. My heart is full! I am so grateful him and I get to exist at the same time and share such a beautiful love.

Happy Thursday! Wishing you sloppy dog kisses today! 😘