For the love of it!
I was talking to someone recently who asked why I didn’t write full-time meaning quit my job and write for a living. I told the truth in my heart. I’m scared of being broke.
I’ve mentioned that I work in Finance. I have no passion for it. It pays my bills and that’s just about it. But writing? Writing sets my soul on fire. Writing makes me feel like I have something to live for. Writing gives my life meaning. You’d think because of that I’d want it to be my main gig. Sadly, no. I never want it to be.
This is my hobby cos life is one luxuriant bitch. It just gives you things not for fame or money but for pure enjoyment. Having a day job affords me the privilege to write from a space of love and truth all the time. I swear quite often in real life and because my writing isn’t what pays my bills I have 100% permission to be my full self in it.
I’d hate to have someone dictate to me what I should write about and how I should write. It would kill my love for it. This blog is mine. I am the boss of me here. And what an incredible gift it’s been to spill my guts here cos I can and have people I’m not even trying to impress respond SO positively to my work. To all of you who read my posts, thank you. I already love writing so much. Having you as my faithful audience is the cherry on top. Thank you.
My boyfriend knew how happy writing made me so he always encouraged me to never stop writing. In all honesty life wouldn’t make sense if I stopped writing. It feels very much like something I was planted on this earth to do. All else? Just details.
I am honestly so deeply grateful that all my needs are taken of to keep me from compromising my voice for a paycheck. When I write, I write from my core. I write because I love it. I write for me. I am always my primary audience because this shit really sets my soul on fire.
I am so deeply grateful for the life I’ve been blessed with. As hard as life is I have my soft squishy teddy that is my writing that holds me and keeps me warm from the inside. What a gift! ♥️
