6 days agoMeant to be.I’m a dog mom! I went to pick up my baby today from Woodrock Animal Rescue. Yes, adopt don’t shop! Listen, in all my 31 years on earth I had NO IDEA that when people said they loved their pets THIS is what they felt. Backstory. Last weekend I went…New Dog4 min read
Apr 26One year later…Today is the first anniversary of my boyfriend’s passing. What a strange thing that even deaths have anniversaries. I wish 26 April could be removed from the calendar so I don’t have to be reminded of what a dreadful day 26 April 2021 was. Anyway, we are here now. I…Grief And Loss2 min read
Apr 17Would have been 30!Today is my boyfriend’s birthday!!! He would have turned 30 today. We always spent his birthday together so I was quite anxious about today. I was meant to go on a solo trip but I changed my mind last week figuring out that being around people would be better than…Birthday1 min read
Apr 12How are you?I was feeling low yesterday so I hung out with my love’s aunt who’s also my favorite person. We binge watched a series we both like and I went to bed early. There are things I do that tell me that I’m in a better headspace and that’s showering before…Grief And Loss2 min read
Apr 11My feelings are always valid but not always true.I woke up feeling low and sad today. I’ve been missing my boyfriend a lot lately. I guess that’s expected. We are in April, the month he died. This time last year we were counting down to what would be our last vacation together. We were both so excited for…Mental Health4 min read
Apr 4Why I’m doing less.I’ve been a giver my whole life. My grandmother was a giver, mommy is a giver and so am I. I’ve never known any other way of being. I’ve never had too little to give. Even the smallest things could always be shared, somehow. I’ve even considered that giving may…Giving6 min read
Mar 24The body remembersTwo weeks back my brother asked what I was planning to do on the one year anniversary of my boyfriend’s passing. I was trying hard to not think about it. I want it to come and go as quickly as possible. My brother said he was asking cos he doesn’t…Grief And Loss3 min read
Mar 6A new chapter. My year of settling.Last week was a week from hell for me. I work in Finance, it was month end at work. Crazy time. Then I was moving. Then I was processing Rickstar’s passing which was very triggering for me cos he died the same way my boyfriend died. …Contentment4 min read
Feb 10Giving mom a break to just be.We have been taught to wish for it, but the wish to be understood may be our most vengeful demand, may be the way we hang on, as adults , to our grudge against our mothers; the way we never let our mothers off the hook for their not meeting…Forgiving Our Mothers6 min read
Feb 7Moving on. My second BIG love.I binge watched all two seasons of Modern love this weekend. I have no regrets. It was the best use of my time! I really enjoyed the show. It was a visual representation of the beauty and greatness of love! …Modern Love4 min read